About Me : I ' m an outgoing person. When someone gets nasty. I don ' t get mad. I get even before they do. Love hitting the Gym and jamming studio. I do vocals and a rhythm guitarist. Gibson ' s my fav guitar brand. I love to party too. And i party hard too ! Wanna know more , add me : nikvacious@live.com.
Heee ! Now im somewhere at Lucky Plaza's Hair Salon (Nelia's Salon And Beauty Spa)..
Im with my bestf, Crownie and her cousin, Teng Teng. Hahah. They're doing their hair. Rebonding it. My turn ? Nahh..not now. I wanna keep my hair a lil longer then i'll have my new hairdo , a week before School's prom :)
I'll be keeping my 'sideburn' and, the fringe longer then i will have it trimmed, highlight and rebond.
Haha. Keh.. I got to go now. Will soon update more alright.
Happy fasting to all muslims :DD
Monday, September 14, 2009{ 1:54 AM }
In a world where everything is hard complex, I discovered something easy...
Falling In Love With You.
With this rose, i not only give you merely a rose But i gave you my heart and soul I send to you all the love i have to give And anything else that would give me the chance to touch your heart..
With this rose, i reveal all my thoughts and feelings about you That i have withheld for so long.. I feel when i am with you..i am like a rose, not cos of it's beauty But because i am able to bloom and grow with you.
To me you are like a rose's sunshine So full of energy and light That never does it fails to lift my spirits Just by the sound of your voice and that look in your eye
I could never tear my eyes from you You are able to make my life worth living But without you, just like a rose I would wither and die Not all at once but little by litte Petal by petal..
Slowly at first, because you have made me Stronger and stronger each day you're with me. But eventually, without you, i will loose all those beautiful petals you have given me..ILY.
{ 1:08 AM }
Hola ! (: Blupp Blupp.. Today, back to school. Ouh..monday blues. Did nothing much in school. No study. Just chilled. Skipped Maths lesson which is from 2pm to 3pm. Lol.. Accompany Crownie to Yew Tee Point..blahblahblahh..
O, you can see, that my interest in my studies is fucking low.hahah.. My interest is more in the Arts(music)..
Hmm.. During the 2 weeks breaks, thursday, friday didnt go anywhere, just rot at home. Rotting at home is cool. Hahah ! :DD.. Nothing much.
Saturday, (12.09.09), was Eiva's 16th Birthday. O, wait ! Her beautiful full name ah, ('Iffah Shafiqah Binte Shaharudin') :)).. All checked ? Spelling correct ? No mistake ? Okay ! Greatt !
*HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY IFFAH ! Syg kaw EIVA !! :DD*
So, that day thought of rotting at home again. But mom, planned to go to the 'Bazaar' at Causeway Point, after she came back from work..so why not i accompany her once in a while laa kan :)) My lil' sister followed. We then, bought some food at the bazaar.
Cuci mate sikit. Hee, many many sangat cannot. Scared later my eyes tembel. And not to forget it's still the holy month of Ramadan ! Wahaha..
O, i bought myself one of my favourite food which is the, 'kebab' ! Yum yumm.. Isehhman !.. have been craving for that laa sey :DD.
Oouh..then mom was craving for 'shark fin soup'. Ouu..my favourite too ! So went around the bazaar looking for the stall. And finally spotted one ! :)
When mommy was ordering the soup..i noticed this one,, 'shark fin soup' stall owner, like eyeing at my mom. And the thing is that it was a female. And i knew she's a gay too. But she's already in her 40s, i guess. Ouh, mann.. Bro bro, the one who you were eyeing at, is my mom ! Not my elder sister ! Lol !
Anyway, at the brighter note.. Heheeee..i bumped into my old long lost friend, Amirah. Ouhkk..makin lame, makin jambu laa dier. Didnt get the chance to talk to her. But too bad she's taken. Hahah..
Hmm..after buying the food for break fast, went into Caustway Point's NTUC to get the stuffs to bake cookies.
Blah Blah Blahh.. Nothing much bout it..
Then, we took 963 back home. Break fast together with dad. Burn was outside so didnt break fast with us. Hmph..sedih. Enjoy enjoy pat luar jek. Tak ajak ! Lol.
Keh..that's all ! Ouh, today during Physics lesson..Mdm Sumarni taught me a new language. It's German by the way.. ....'Ich Liebe Du !' (translation, 'I Love You !') :DD **Yea, i do.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009{ 1:29 AM }
Hi guys ! So sweet of you to drop by my blog..heheh !
Anyways.. Here's a damn fucking longgg post for today's and yesterday's..
Ouh, still busy with school. Sec 4s Na students ! Endure endure.. Less than 2 months to go then we're free ! 12th Oct ! :))
Today, Crownie and i went to meet up with Eiva :)) Malay, Social studies and English paper's done ! *clap hands*. Now 2 weeks break from exams. Yayy !! Hahah.
So yesterday.. Met Eqaa and Zaff to break our fast at Bpp ljs. Then we slacked outside bpp for awhile before Eqaa and i went for tuition.
So here's the part that happened and it's freaking me out mann...was my first time facing this kind of situation..so it went something like this.
While we was slacking and chit chatting, there was this dude in his 20s, i guess. Err..has the looks and speaks english fluently. But a no no for me.. Went over to us and started to asked us some questions. Quite personel ques by the way.. The 3 of us started to freaked out when he asked what's our age..
That dude : "you guys mind me asking something ? Are you guys gays ? Like you guys, like girl and girls...." Everyone kept quiet and zaff was like saying something..
And i(Nik), was like : "err..yea sure. Err..they're not actually. But, i am. Im bisexual. Why ?" That dude : "can i ask how old you guys are ? "
Nik : *whisper and looking somewhere else* " err...18 ?" That dude : "Ouh, dont worry, im not HSA or something." *laughs*
Everyone kept quiet again..so i went..
Nik : "they're both 16 actually. And im 17. Why ?" That dude : "just asking..err, cos' i've got a friend who's a girl.."..blahblahh dont know what he was saying. Then i went "Ouhh..." That dude : okay, i'll be right back alright..
So, we didnt expect him to come back but he did. And he came back with another can of beer again..
That dude to me: "heyy, so just now you're saying that you're a bi/gay ? You like guys too ? " Nik : "yeaa..ouhh nope, i prefer girls for now. why ?"
That dude : "just asking. It's a question. So that's who you are ? *smiles* Nik :*fake smile* "yea" -.- That dude : "What's your name ?" Nik : "Nik." That dude : "ouh, Nik. I'm Bryan"
Nik :"ouh..Okay." That dude : "are you planning to turn straight or something ? Cos, im actually searching for gay girls. Who are malays by the way. I like gay girls."
Nik : "ouh, i see. Cool." Then it went silent.. That dude : "so you're not planning to turn straight ?"
Nik : "yea..nope, im not". Then me again, asking him.. Nik : "are you drunk or something" *fake laugh* That dude : "nope actually."
Nik : "ouh.." *lol* .__." That dude : "actually, i get my balls big when i drink beer". Nik : *freaking out* (i went, errr..rightt).. That dude : "thanks by the way". Nik : "yeaa..welcome ???" -.- *lol* End of conversation....
But, heyy bryan, we can still be friends right ? I guess ? Lol.
**Kehh..so this is for those who's still trying hard to figure out whether im a girl or boy alright ? im borned as a girl.. It's both yea..
And to that girl whom, i know you as "Ros". Im Gay. But im already physically and mentally a man inside.. After what had happened to me in the past. 3 years ago when i was 14. It was a nightmare.
If you're reading this girl, i am Sorry.. Really am. You know who you are. It was me, the one who gave that stuffed teddy during Valentine's Day.
Just wanna get to know you. That's all. Yes, i've got a crush on you but i like you as friends.. Can we be friends Little Red Rose ? *pray hard*
Monday, September 7, 2009{ 12:15 AM }
Wee hee !! Yesterday, was Sunday. Lol, like duh ! Obviously mann ! -.-" Anyways..so it was a fantastic day, cause i'd spent time with Eiva and cameover to her grandma's crib to breakfast and to chill there for awhile. Woo, cool. Hahah !
First, Eiva texted me asking wheather i could accompany her to Jurong. And i said, i dont really mind cause after all, i was damn fucking bored at home. Trying to compose a song but no inspiration at that time. Lol..lol..
Put on my black Radiohead tee and just grab my cap along cause i was lazy to straighten my hair. Huhuu..off i went to meet Eiva at the Yew Tee Mrt Station.
Was 15 minutes late. Sorry horr Eiva :DD..
Then board the train to Jurong.. After we've reached, i've got no freaking idea where she wanna go. So, kiter make a one freaking big round from the the traffic light to the Cash Converter shop to the NTUC and back to the traffic light just to find the shop that sell backery backery stuff. But none ! haiyaa..Mcm budak sesat pusing satu round ! Uat tawaf ! -.-"
So, we made our way to Clementi instead.. -.O" And this time, we made another "tawaf"..just to find the block that we're heading to.. Arrgh..i felt like strangling Eiva !!
Could'nt take it anymore and when i took a look at muke Eiva, dh mcm idk-what-to-say.. Pity her.
So, i went to ask this Ah pekk who is selling shoes uh..bout, where is "this block this block"..
He said, needa cross over to the other side. Hmph.. Okay thanks bro !! :DD
Went over to the other side. And finally found the shop. Thank goodness ! Bought, the stuff to bake cookies. And Eiva said that was her first time entering such places. Lol !.. -.-" tu lah, sape srh taq naq ikot your mom go to those places..
Anyways, after getting her stuff. Went to NTUC to buy CornFlacks. Then, Eiva asked me to just over to her grandma's crib to breakfast there together, there was her aunts and cousins too so we took bus number 105 to her grandma's crib. Cool.. Was somewhere at Jurong. Shared earpiece while in the bus. Music in our ears. Boring dehh.. Hahah.
Reached liao.. But, i was shy uhh to step into the house.. Pemaluu mahhh.. Then when i started to introduce myself to her grandma..i didnt know that she could speak english. omgayy ! Eiva your nenek rocks ! Hah !
Waited for buke. We dh lapar gyle..first time saw Eiva helping out the housework. Teehee, xD.. Then, her aunts came. And omg, omg ! both her little cousins was so adorable and almakk, mcm naq picit pipi dorg mann.. Hahah !
Buke liao.. All makan !! The atmosphere was sungguh kacoh gyle. Eiva said standard.. And O, nenekk !! Your cooking best ! Really, it was delicious and will always be. (:
Then..slacked. One of Eiva's Aunt bought a birthday cake. Didnt know that they're gonna celebrate Eiva's 16th birthday in advance.
Photo taking.. I was in too.. Happyy :DD
Kecoh-ness started again. Cream all over each other's faces. I could'nt stop laughing at their kecoh-ness..
Chill..chill. Then we went down to the void deck and chilled again.. Eiva maen swing pat playground like small kid. Haha. And i was lying at the ground trying to count the stars, but there was none.
Then it's time for me to go home. Say bye bye to Eiva. Getting late already.. Reached home at about 11.30pm. Feeling damn exhausted..went to bed at around 1am plus..the end.
Today was my first N level MT paper. Cool. Was quite easy. Nothing much. BlahBlahBlahh..
Tomorrow, MT listening compre. Greatt.. Kehh, got to go now. Wanna dig my ear for tomorrow's paper ! Hahah ! Was just kiddinggg alright !
Bye bye ! Missing someone. With much love..Vacious ((:
Friday, September 4, 2009{ 1:20 AM }
Picture above there is me. Lol.. Pssst, im trying to hide something ! :))
Hello Hello Hello ! Bored plus tired.. School was great, i guess. Tonight there's English tuition. Great ! :DD
N level examination is next week. Fuck !! But luckyyy.. First paper is gonna be MT. Pheww..
Kehh.. Nothing much to blog about. Got to go !
Darling, dont lie to me, dont lie to me now Now im erasing you Throwing those memories out Out to something new Im throwing those memories
Darling Dont lie to me Darling Dont lie to me Darling Dont lie to me Darling dont !
Breathe in slowly now Darling dont lie to me -2x
Inhale truth i plead For your my only hope Dont lie, dont leave
Mind set on failure The road you chose Told me you loved me Tell me no !
Take your time im only dying Patiently i kneel here dying Curse the blind your curse the blind Deep inside is where it lies
Dont mind me im only dying -3x (what got me into this mess that devoured me) Dont mind me im only dying (lies and deceitful actions keep promising) what got me into this mess that devoured me lies and deceitful actions keep promising what got me into this mess that devoured me Darling dont lie what got me into this mess that devoured me Darling dont lie lies and deceitful actions keep promising
Darling dont lie !.. ( Darling lyrics by Eyes Set To Kill )
Wednesday, September 2, 2009{ 2:04 AM }
I've a song. Composed by me. Credits to Eric Morthan. This song is about,, wanting to be with someone. This heart has been yearning for her..
Titled : Hold Me Tight, Don't Let Go. It went like this. Enjoy..
(verse 1) I see your face See your eyes I see you smiling at me.. (at me)
(verse 2) All the words Deep inside my heart Is screaming.. (screaming)
(Chorus) I want you to know That i still love you, i miss you I want you to know That i still want you, i need you.. (i miss you..)
(verse 3) All my life, i've been waiting For someone like you To fall for me.. (for me)
(verse 4) So please, give it a chance Take my heart My soul, my life And hold it tight..
(Chorus part)...
(bridge) Hold me tight, Don't let go..(don't let go) Hold me tight, Don't let go..don't let go...
(Chorus) I want you to know That i still love you, i miss you.. (-2x)
I want you to know That i still want you, i need you I want you to know That i still love you, i miss you !!..
My Lover. My Life. My Shorty. My Wife.
