Kiss me and you will see stars. Love me and I will give them to you.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008 { 12:42 AM }

*School was "gerek"... Haha!

Fantasy. its something f a k e
something un-real
what we dream
what we imagine
what isn't there.
what is a lie.
to our imagination y o u for example..

Another song by me... i'm freaking bored right now.. Hope you enjoy ;)

At Pain Ends:

The blissful tears still linger
in a home broken and shattered
the tears were always there
and the scars would never fade

with the draining of her blood
she thinks that she can stop the tears that fall
she grows close to her goal when she sees
something like a movie, and in it she sees
her mother kneeling before a grave,
her father hanging from the rafters,
and the only one who she had ever truly loved flying through the air

she sees then that she would just bring more blissful tears
stumbling she tries to stop the bleeding
crying her blissful tears, she does the only thing she can
and calls for help, but her home is a broken home and none hear her cries

Labels: H e l l o S e x y

Tuesday, October 21, 2008 { 11:51 PM }

HAHA! That's me ;).. Thanks Pam for editting it too. *Smiles*

This is sweetheart ;) *Hugs*

Labels: I love you

{ 1:52 AM }

i couldn't find the words to say

so i wrote them down and here they lay

your more precious to me than any soul

how much you mean,

you'll never know i love you more and more each day

far more than words could ever say

so if you love me the way i love you

please tell me that it is true.

~Story of you ending life:

all these thoughts swirling around

you find yourself lying on the ground

all you want to do is cry

but you find your eyes are just too dry

you end up here everyday

why can't you somehow break away again

you wish you could feel something

or just a world where there was nothing to live and breathe,

but you still suffocate to be happy once before it's too late

this story never ends,

it always goes on this harsh reality will never be gone today is over,

example of your life reality is only quiet when you reach for your knife

~ An unknown world A far off place, Of twisted scenes, In a daze, What does it mean, Off to the side, Hardly there, A place to hide, A way to stare, Keep in focus, See it coming, Through the forest, Of an unknown world, A hot flash, Now it’s freezing, Make a dash, Before its leaving, Stand away, Make it strong, The end of the day, It’s been too long, Walk around, Don’t leave it behind, Find it there, In a world unkind, Listen and hear, Before it’s gone, Almost in control, Finished and done, Don’t let it go, Now it’s over, It’s finished now, Find the cover, And now ask how.

~ the last two i've already posted, but i wanted them on the same thread. ~ Caught Barely there Not in existence Why should i care Nothing left for resistance A dream divine Beyond all compare A thought so fine But just a nightmare Walk away Past the line One more day Make it mine Now come back If you may You can not lack Knowing the right way Never wake up Almost look back Always a bluff Before you crack This is what you wanted To drink of this cup You were just daunted It will never be enough ~ Hurt and Confused Everything I know is crashing away, I just want to run from it all, But all that i see reminds me of it every day, Why does it seem everywhere i turn it's just farther i fall? I want to break away, to start all over again, But every step i take i go ever farther in, In this endless pain i don't even remember when it began, This deep, deep turmoil always hidden within ~

{ 1:43 AM }

Another random piece of fucking poem.. Just ran across it :) Enjoy!

LIKE PUZZLE PIECES:

There is nothing that I would not do,

To get out of this hell and be in heaven with you..

I’m always searching for ways to escape,

But it looks like the best thing to do is just wait..

I remember the bad times when I just couldn’t choose.

Which did I love more, the blood or you?

My mind had said, “No, stay with cutting and blood.”

But my heart screamed for me to run to you and our glistening future....

I remember the good times,

when you made me laugh and smile..

Something I hadn’t experienced for a while.......

When you first said you loved me,

And I realized I did too,

Or when you said I could spend the rest of my life with you.

I remember when I first got to hear your voice,

And I immediately knew that I had made the right choice.

I remember every touch and every kiss from my dreams,

All just as real as I know it will be.

I didn’t think my heart could hold so much love.

We both fit together so perfectly.

*A simple love

I couldn't find the words to say

so i wrote them down and here they lay

you are more precious to me than any soul

how much you mean,

you'll never know i love you more and more each day

far more than words could ever say

so if you love me the way i love you

please tell me that it is true

Labels: Like Puzzle Pieces

Monday, October 20, 2008 { 12:17 AM }

I really don't know where i belong... Neither in mom & dad arms... Nor your arms. Feel broken inside...

That's what i can say.....

Today school sucks! As always! Get caught by f@*king Mrs. Sherilyn teo. WTF! Sorry yea. But this is like mmmmmmmm.....no comment uhh. She caught me because my fringe is freaking long. Yea, that's me. Love having "hair eating face"... SO DEAL WTH IT! DON'T FUCK UP!! AND my lips cause there is a pierce mark AND my shoes! WTF! WTF! WTF! WTF! I spent like almost 3 hours sitting outside the HOD room -.-... It was so fucking bored! As usual lahh. I'm used to all those shit ahh. Can't wait to leave TWSS! When it was Maths lesson, i sneaked and ran to computer lab 1. Finally, i feel like I'm 'free'. ha ha! Then it was recess....hang out with my asshole buddies ;)..

School ends at 12.30pm. Accompany Pam to lot1 to buy her cute headphone. ha ha!..

That's all guys! Thanks for reading ;)

Labels: I may look fucking innocent.....................................But i'm not asshole.

Friday, October 17, 2008 { 1:09 AM }

i'm 16....................................................................

Sum 41 is the best band ever!

guess i'm a nice person, but people judge me to easily..

i try to talk to everyone..if i dont then blah..

i like animals alot. (my best friends x.x)

and idk what else i'm not that interesting

I HATE SCHOOL

I HATE EVERYONE THERE

I HATE WAKING UP AT *6 AM

I HATE THE TEACHERS

I HATE THE WORK

I HATE THE PRESSURE

I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!

I'M SICK OF MY PEERS..

I'M SICK OF MY FRIENDS..

I'M SICK OF MY REFLECTION..

I'M SICK OF EVERYTHING..

I'M SICK OF ME!

I'M SICK OF HIM, HER, THEM EVERYBODY.

I'M SICK OF BEING SICK AFTER EVERYTHING..

LIFE IS HORRIBLE IT SUCKS..

..but once again, just when everything seems to be going SOMEWHAT okay another life sucking demon comes and fucks you up again.

oh. and it NEVER ends..you pray for it... but it will NEVER kill you.. just torture you

...Random outburst..fuck it
i just want it all to stop.... :(

*NO ONE is your true friend..notice how they all sell you out if they haven't now just wait..
sorry for the negativity, but ..whatever

NOW wtf do i like?

me...

~Guitars

~bass

~music(Jamming)

~food

~sleep

~her

movies worth watching for me... cant be bothered to think so yea theres way more just any good horror movie thats not crap
so that's my lame life! woohoo awesome.

Labels: idgaf talk if you want.. i'll send some shii back to you

Thursday, October 16, 2008 { 1:43 AM }

Today school was great. Nothing much. I was slacking with my asshole buddies at the back of the classroom. I was fucking bored. Haha! So i went to asked Rouping to help me re-pierce my lips and she did. I feel great!
My friends just stared at me when the needle pierced through my lips. Haha! They're were showing funny faces and that really made me laugh so hard when i was getting the piercing. haha! I feel great!

Hun, texted me when i was in the class doing NOTHING and i was so happy. lol..
During recess, i can't hardly chew my food 'cause of the pain. lol.. But i endure horr!! I feel great! We had an early dismissed when we were supposed to end school at 2.30pm. :)

Ooo.. Yesterday, I went jalan raya with my 3G peeps :)..

~1st house: Sabrina's house.. We ate spagg ;D
Lol, psst! i think i cook better uhh :)

~2nd house: Hidayu's house.. Ate kuihs ;)

~3rd house: Wani's house.. Lol, just next to my block..
152's my block and her's is 153 ;) lol...

Lastly, i asked them to comeover to my house too..

Pheww~... What a tiring day.. Sigh >.<

HURT:
It takes all I have
To hold in my tears
It wears me out
To hide all my fears

I try so hard
To keep the pain away
All of this
It's making me rather insane

I don't wanna live
It'd be best if I died
Thank you world
It was a pleasure to be alive

(And No, I Could Not Find A Better Name For It xD)

[[I secretly wish I was never born]]

Labels: I saw a suicidal cat on the overpass, it jumped over the top and landed on a car and died

Monday, October 13, 2008 { 4:05 AM }

Please add this razor to my wrist,

Well I write down that death will soon be on my list,

The list of hopes and dreams finally coming true,

But yet somehow I can't see through

All the shit and drama in my life,

I just wanna take my sharpest knife,

And cut so deep

That all my blood will come out in one big heep.

I want it to end, I want to cry,

But the more I break apart inside